Spooky Season

Everett

Tomorrow is October 1st which means it is officially going to be “Spooky Season”. One of my favorite times of the year. In keeping with that theme I’m going to be posting two things. One is something I saw on the internet somewhere, I honestly don’t know who to credit. The second is just something I wrote that to me, felt in line with the first one. Both a bit dark and “Spooky”, and I thought they were fun!

Sobered by the sun

Until it went down

voices in his head

But none sound

Indecision was the gas

Liquor at the wheel

A bad decision here

To teach him how to feel

–Everett

September 25th, 2019

Everett

Haven’t posted in a long long time. I know a few post ago I posted about a big change coming in my life. I was at the end of the road and there wasn’t anywhere left to go, a leap needed to be made. And I did make that leaped. I jumped into nursing school. My world has shifted and turned upside down. It’s busy, very busy. Class, lab exam, exam, exam. You get my point. I did it though and I am glad I did. It’s going well so far and I am personally doing well so far. With that being said, I do have things to post, and things will get posted on a more regular basis.

-Everett

https://soundcloud.com/louisthechild/idwsa

June 18th, 2019

Everett

I need to start writing. Daily. Even when I don’t think I have anything to write maybe I will find something. I’m trying to figure out what I am going to do with my life so just writing stuff down will help me get some thoughts out and who knows, may uncover something about myself. I posted a few months ago about me taking a leap into a new chapter of my life. That was about applying to Nursing school and attempting to embark on the path to becoming an RN. That was a farce. I think I tried to convince myself that was a good idea when in the end I couldn’t fool myself. That wouldn’t be for me when I logically think about what being an RN consists of. So here I am, back at square one. Hating my job more and more each day. Not having a clue about what to do going forward. Do I go back to school? What would I go for, where would I go? Apply to new jobs I guess. What do I want to do? I do not know. I know that I don’t want to land in another job that I cant stand, but I can’t think of any job where that would not be the case. So there we have it. I do not know what to do.

-Everett

Looking for the answer…

Looking for the answer…

Everett

The rain had cleared and the sun was bright that day. He could feel the warmth on his face as the sun peaked over the horizon. A spring breeze flowed through the tall grass. Every step forward he took put more distance between himself and past behind him. He wasn’t sure where he was but he was okay with that. He heard some birds chirping and the sway of a tree in the wind. Everything at that moment seemed okay for the first time in a long time. There are a lot more steps to take but the rain in his head finally began to clear up, the fog from his vision was starting to dissipate and for the first time when he closed his eyes he couldn’t see her.  She wasn’t walking by his side and she wasn’t waiting for him up ahead, he was completely alone and this time he was okay with it.

-Everett

It’s a long way down…

It’s a long way down…

Everett

There he sat, feet dangling off the edge of the cliff. Time had finally run out, the road had finally come to an end. He stared down, everything below him seemed so far away, almost like there was nothing even there.  He sat there with a lot to think about. Turning back wasn’t an option. He knew what he had to do, he knew he was the one that had to do it, no one would do it for him. It was scary, and it was a long way down, but he had to take a step forward, that leap of faith, faith in himself, must happen. He closed his eyes and took another step forward, except he realized he wasn’t falling…

As I myself sit on a ledge, about to take a leap of faith into a new career, a new and completely different chapter of my life I see how far down things look. How scary it seems and how far away the end seems, but the only option is to take that leap and go forward. I think everyone will come to one, but most likely many of these “ledges” in their life and there really is only one thing to do. Take that step, have faith in yourself, there is no point in going back the other way. Once you take that leap I think you’ll realize too that you aren’t falling, uncontrollably to some unknown fate, you’re actually climbing towards a goal and something better. You may not realize it at the time, but you’ll realize it once you get there.

-Everett

Cigarette Daydreams…

Everett

It rained. But he didn’t care. The song on the radio almost made him forget that he was there all alone. He looked to the seat next to him and the smile went away from his face. She wasn’t there this morning. He didn’t know where else to go to look for the answers except there. He heard her laugh and he quickly looked to his other side. Nothing there. Another lonely soul sat a table away with a cup of coffee. The only thing keeping them warm this morning. Funny how all you want to do is forget but it’s impossible to let go of that last memory. The rain kept coming and it was welcome. The rain hid his tears, standing in the pouring rain.

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